My life loved ones, beloved father died in Shandong Provincial Hospital, left us forever, at the age of 72 years. A short period of six months, killing the father of life is a fatal disease called pulmonary fibrosis, the incidence rate of only five hundred thousandths.
2010 Chinese New Year Eve, the mother said my father had a cold, took some medicine to the county hospital, but also to make him open the medicine students of Chinese medicine prescriptions, with orange peel or something like red water. It is cold in winter, often, and I did not use it as matter. And my father has always been on their health very seriously, a regular annual physical examination, there is not one, go to clinics, hospitals, the injection of the injection, the medication the medication, which is, let us do the very peace of mind their children . Chinese New Year, listening to my father once said: Great New Year, the first few days do not take medicine, and so over the years, go look. Malaysia and Singapore the first month, his father went to the county hospital, the doctor to be a CT lung examination, test results showed that pulmonary fibrosis. The test results came back my father did not tell us. Then my mother said, because when doctors told him a little bit of lung fibrosis, no major emergency. Pulmonary fibrosis for most of us is a strange term, for the father, is no exception, since the doctor said was not big problems, my father did not mind. A few days after infusion therapy. One afternoon I remember the first lunar month, is to go to work, the object called me and said his father told him to go home a little something. I was very ignorant, not urgent, the father will not bother us at work. I hastily took leave of absence, with the object back to the home. Father was sitting in a small living room chair Lianbang, he sought our advice, said the recent cold has been bad, the doctor to lose some water, to facilitate the patient's words but not reimbursed to the hospital, then some away. Finally, we discuss more appropriate or go to the hospital. The next day, his father would go to the hospital on the county hospital stay. After one or two every afternoon lost fluid, he would leave to go home, back to eat lunch there several times, the early losers, I just pick him up from work, most of his bus to go, sit bus back. 20 days later, the doctor said to leave the hospital. Playful nature of the father seems to regain the freedom of birds, a hospital, and again his hobbies: hiking, playing gateball, calligraphy, chat with friends riding electric car to look for ... ... However, I did not expect this the father had life happy days in the last paragraph.
5 early father's health began to feel unwell then. May 1 day, Ginza opened the child's aunt and I go shopping with them for fear of more people crowded shopping malls, but also the spread of hand, foot and mouth disease, I decided the child into his grandmother home. Something I object at noon, took the child into his grandmother's house and went away. He did not tell me that the child's grandmother went to the old grandmother at home, at home he is the only one grandfather. Naughty restless child, father is very difficult to cope, he can not cook, go to the children to buy the most like to eat pig ears and other food. However, when the disease has begun to torment him, he felt chills, weakness, but he knew that shopping with me, did not give me a call, gave my mother playing to the phone, said his nephew came to his mother from the bridge faster focus point of return. If I had know the father at home, saying that the child will not stay out on my own shopping, eating out, and later because of this, I blame the object carefully.
5 3, brother family back. Father and brother, said his illness, from their conversation, I realize that the At the time, when my brother said it is very easy, then perhaps he understood only the literal meaning, it is estimated that he had never heard of this disease now. Listening to feel I was not a good word to word, not to be a good patient, and instantly, my mind imagined the way pulmonary fibrosis, is a living organ became flesh like silk-like the dead tissue, and that the same organs but also as a normal job? I am not available. However, from father to brother to sister in law did not seem to be any different response, I also think that something may not be large. His father made a few days, so my brother drove to look at the big hospital in Jinan, because he asked to be an old comrades also had the disease for several years, and has been taking medicine to Jinan to eat.
5 4, I go to work, marked in Baidu, Random out of a few lines, including: I feel the seriousness of the disease, and quickly opened it. Learned about pulmonary fibrosis presentations, including I expect something goes wrong, immediately sent a text message to his brother: to pay close attention to see his father's illness. I see the disease from the Internet search experts, the last from the good doctor online, search to the Provincial Hospital in one, he received a thank you letter up to the rehabilitation of patients. Brother is also there to contact experts. The next day, my brother drove back. I took leave of absence and the object. I do not have time to follow his father said, They have enough, but how can I be assured? Dawn, we set out for the Provincial Hospital. Contact through a friend a good brother, a respiratory medicine specialists. To Jinan, the hospital not to work, we parked the car to the front of the Provincial Hospital outpatient parking lot. Brother and the object to find the contact friends, my father and I were waiting. While, my brother came back, saying his hands ready, let me hasten to hang a number line. Father found a place to sit down, I went to queue up. About half an hour, I finished No. hanging back, far from seeing his father standing there, doing his usual exercise regularly in the Event legs, with the same healthy individuals. After her brother's friends came, and brought us inside. Experts on the third floor, we hold the father, the father felt when climbing stairs was a bit hard, and went to the third floor of some breath. Because hospitals require only one person, accompanied by a doctor, I was waiting outside, my brother accompanied his father into it. A few minutes later, my brother escorted my father out to do a lung function test. Pulmonary function tests can not be done before the fasting, I went to the outside of the small market, his father bought a few vegetarian dumplings. Dad, after eating, go check out. A few minutes later, out of the checklist, get the object. I asked him to check the results of what he speaks is always optimistic, he said older, the doctor said very poor lung function. Upon hearing this, just think people are getting old, lung function will deteriorate. Experts to open a 1,000 yuan worth of medicine, in leaving, when my brother's friends in the Provincial Hospital to send us off his father, he picked up his father's hand looked at the fingers, also told his father came home to smoke point oxygen. At that time, his father says with a laugh, blood oxygen level, the more severe hypoxia, the more purple fingers.
out from the provincial hospital, while his father is not easy to say, hoping to go to Provincial Hospital to find an expert to see that I checked. We immediately drove to the provincial Chinese medicine, to the hospital entrance, has been nearly 11 o'clock, put up numbers in a hurry to find a respiratory of Dr. Tao Kai. Many people are waiting, we just catch the last bus, then we may no longer be collected because the expert patient day to a morning time. Turn to his father, the doctors take a stethoscope to his chest and listened back, looked at the film, he said that the disease is yes, then you say the disease around the world are exploring, but not so terrible. He prescribed some medicine for his father, including two bottles of a bottle to fight back, and kick down immediately feel comfortable. Asked about where we are, that far, let us come back two days later. This situation should be added as the hospital, but there are no beds. Take the medicine on more than 1,000 dollars, time for lunch. We find a fast food restaurant, we ordered a hearty meal, but the father's status is very bad, he said, could get up early morning, cold, and then some cold, no appetite, he ate the point of bread, almost no major any more. Later, I know that once a cold aggravated the disease once a fever is infection of the lungs. After dinner, we accompanied his father went to the Eye Hospital, Jinan, check the eyes to do it again, because he was feeling, blurred vision, he worried about the surgery done last problem, the final test results and the last operation does not matter, but some cataract father at ease.
afternoon, got home, my father did not immediately play bottle, he felt less anxious, but to eat some cold medicine to treat cold symptoms. The next day, he went out-marked bottle. Fried herbs themselves seriously every day, all drink. Only had fifty-six herbs, the father not to feel the body, have to go to hospital. He believes that the county hospital last Well, where to go or lose a little water, good fast. He took the bus every day to go by bus back. But to a ten-day, he took the bus to go home and take the broken road that period of time, it is very difficult, and so he changed fight, so the taxi took him to the door, and after a few days, he Even the ability to take a taxi to go home are not, and had lived in the ward during the day and night. To twenty days, the father became very emaciated, lose the nose of oxygen, a few meters back and forth the way to the toilet, he's bad breath. He saw the doctor asked, Father to discuss with us, we say that a one level, please. Provincial Hospital, Department of Respiratory Medicine of the day, a leading expert came to the county hospital, and colleagues made an appointment at noon because of something I did not go, so do not hear it to the doctor to say, just know that the experts give the province put a more good antibiotics.
experts in the province three days left, that night I received a house in the district his brother's phone, he talks provincial experts told me again that the disease is not cancer, cancer, a talent 40 years old, found out just three months left. Said his father's films from the point of view, his father's illness to move forward very quickly ... ... I can not go on listening to three months, went away! So fast, if the father, I can not imagine. Brother cried over the phone, I started crying and hung up the phone, I cried in bed half a wet towel, I imagine my father leaving the scene, the kind of feeling of pain to release only through the tears, Finally, tired cry, and I fell asleep.
better to spend a week of antibiotics, in addition to reducing sputum, other did not see results. At noon that day, the object requested treatment for his father to eat several doctors, I went, I would like to hear what they have said. During the reception, they said there is no cure for this disease at present, difficult disease in the world, are explored. Western medicine is through hormones to treat, there is no other way. They called their friend, a county hospital, said his father also had had the disease a year died. I can not eat any more, no longer sit still, I went to the bathroom and cry a second time. After dinner, I drove to the county hospital to pick up his mother back home, I did not into the ward, but in the car called and told him to call directly from the mother, the father probably did not hear the pain I had, I bear forward, the effort to hear the bad news to swallow stomach. Back home, my mother and I sat on the sofa, watching the mother knew nothing about, I could not help but say to her, my goal is to take care of father, mother and more dedicated, do not ever let his father in the hospital a person in the water, give him a treat. My mother said how bad this disease, I could not help crying, but my mother perhaps lack of knowledge, may feel that this fate will not come to the father who she did not how pessimistic. During that time, I go to the hospital almost every day at noon, set out from the hotel food, not greasy, to nutrition. Father was not much to eat, his appetite was not as good as before, and I began to feel his father's honor on the day can not wait.
5 end of the county hospital treatment fails, we determined the decision should no longer delay, the father immediately went to Provincial Traditional Chinese Medicine with the expert. Line, registration, waiting, waiting, to hear several patients suffering from the same disease, a woman and an old man, old couple walked past, do not see the breath, with the same healthy. I instantly feel in the dark to see the dawn, I went to the old lady in front of, say, aunt, you have to do is pulmonary fibrosis? She said, ah, ten years or so, his wife also have this disease, eat Tao Taifu of the drug, now walk Han's all right. I'm elated, and took his aunt went to see father. Father was waiting on a bench in the corridor. That aunt, said after the past, a lot. I learned later, who aunt's condition has been early in the most timely treatment, and is chronic, so it is lucky to live so many years. Routed to us, only to find the Tao Kai. Tao Kai said that the last you do not listen to me, this time much, this may have to listen to me. But now beds stress, can go to emergency treatment, a free bed to the hospital. Open the medicine, get emergency room, lost on the fluid. Objects left behind to take care of my father, I went home for referral procedures and other matters.
home, the mother has been in the packing, preparing to accompany the bed in Jinan, we also borrowed a folding bed. I went to the county hospital bill, for referral procedures. The next day, my brother and wife came back, driving with my mother and I went to Jinan. Raining hard that day. Parked in the emergency room door, I walked into the emergency room to get off, afar off to the father of a man sitting in the corridor of the bench, because the light is dim, I came near, he not recognize me . I called out, Dad, he saw us. What are the procedures the object out, and we walked into the emergency room with his father, soon after the infusion began. Dad lying on the bed, depending on the county hospital's bill alone, I gave him. It says We are beginning to persuade him, I said a bad mood, bad for the disease. In fact, when my heart is rising hope. Because I see the real-life example of a 10-year existence, breaking the 3-5 years the evil curse. However, the ghost know that my father was not lucky. Day in the emergency room came a 40-year-old Hunan woman, her daughter to accompany her, and it is the same disease, she is also found on the Internet's here. Later she lived for more than two weeks of hospital, go home to drink the medicine. I object to go home, mother and brother left. Lived in the emergency room about two or three days, was told with beds, my father was admitted to the fifth floor, respiratory, or an extra bed. Days did not think there was actually the end of life where father.
tell the truth, live in homes that had just a few days, I suddenly feel better, I thought silently looking forward to seeing results. Brother called to say hope to hear some more. Hospital after a week are catching up with the Dragon Boat Festival, I took three days off, can not wait to take the bus to Jinan. I brought the eggs from home, but also from her husband's family brought the wood eggs. Spring City Square to the Ginza, I went to the supermarket to buy fruit, walnut powder, I tried to get him nutritional supplements. I play the packages to come Chinese provinces, the mother come out to accept me. Into the ward, the father is indeed in good shape. He is infusion, to 12 o'clock to be losers. Mother had bought the rice, so I eat. In the afternoon they want me back, I want to walk, the evening rolled out a spring bed, the mother sick in bed one night to go home to sleep. I remember my father when it comes time to sleep at night listening to the radio with headphones, sleep well, rarely heard him awake all night. I stayed there for three days, except for the mother to go out buy some basic food, water packed, I not much help, because his father could take care of themselves, he could himself face, feet, brush your teeth. Father eating, okay, I go to the supermarket every day, changing the pattern to his father to buy good food, feeling like to eat a bite to eat. I came back, after a day, my brother went. I sent him text messages saying, tell him to buy some good father, such as rare fruit. My brother did, but then my mother said, when his father has been unable to eat so many things.
went to a week, my father called me and said that much money on the hospital account, let me get some money this weekend, but let me find a few pieces from the wardrobe to wear the T shirt in summer bring love to clean my father was never a chance to get, because he was seriously ill for a day, simply can not take a bath, clothes can not be renewed. We drove to a family of three, he was pleased to see the children, before the time at home, have been accustomed to meet once a week. We do not have long to stay, eat lunch, spent a period of time left. I came home a few phone calls, asked if any effect. Realistic to say that his father effect in short time. , continue to have hope. During that time, I'm crazy every day in search of the Internet, in the good doctor online consultation Zhuzhidafu. The doctor gave me the answer, now let me see hope,cheap UGG boots, while they felt the situation was serious. I was wandering in between, every day at the peak of excitement and loss, but finally forced himself to look optimistic, because I do not believe such a good father would be bad luck.
went to the weekend, want to visit from the heart, but his father said that there is money on account, to visit such trouble, here I am nice, do not come. Regret to see the number of times now too, honor God gave me too little time. Another weekend, my mother said turn the ward, the new unit with toilet, his father out of the toilet was hard. At first, I asked No empty beds in the new ward, the mother let me buy a small folding bed with the past. Got off the phone, I cried, I could not persuade himself. Into the new ward, at the door to see her brother,Discount UGG boots, from his expression, you know things are bad. I quickly went in and saw my father was lying in bed, his head covered with a towel, the mother said last night fever came, and now just back down. Then the child ran out, his father Shen Zhaoshou to enough, shouting the name of the child, could not help but cry. I know a fever what it means for patients with pulmonary fibrosis. To avoid the father and mother started talking to me, she said she asked the Doctor Ma, Doctor Ma said that his father's lung function is poor, say something to the toilet breath able to come up on the end. Good condition but conscious father, my mother began to explain something. I blame the mother told me that these sad words. Brother also told me that he asked his doctor not say the other side of a very difficult question to answer, . At that time, I decided to stay a few days to accompany his father, but my mother said let us all go back. As with children, sleep is not good arrangement, they did not stay.
got home, I started uneasy. To his father on the telephone handset charge, no phone calls a day, I was to fit. Phone, the father's voice still resonate powerfully, does not know how much he is the strength, only speak the words. Friday, the unit of organization to sunlight. To the previous night, I called his mother said my father yesterday fever. Fever for several days and want to benefit of the doubt are impossible. Back from the evening sunshine, received her brother's message, saying, Although the long hunch, but I never thought this day has come so fast. Later, I know, my father and the children to let me have a good time in the sunshine, so I asked my brother came back talk to me.
next morning, that is, July 19, I take the bus to Jinan. Ward went before, I heard the familiar voice of his father, and my heart burst of surprise, thinking he was chatting with others. The door to look, to know his brother called to say doctors to let him treat fever inflammation, fibrosis being the first not attend. She spoke, tears began excitedly. Mother told me that these days continuous fever, burn 39 degrees last night, the doctor said there was no other good way, and only a last resort, that is with a prestige where the U.S. imports of antibiotics. The drug is expensive and had a family to consider. The need to consider, and then you have to use. My brother and I scrape together the money to fight Daozhang 3 million, and gave his father to spend the afternoon. Although the drug is to spend, but the doctor told us that A few days ago after a patient with a effective, but still did not save his life, after a week away. Enlighten me brother
evening, my father began to fever, the first hot, burned in his bed over and over again, his mouth kept talking in your sleep, big mouth breathing heavily all night in the uncomfortable issue of the sound. I lay in bed, panting from time to time by his father woke to the sound. Around the mother accompanied her father, the disease afflicted him like that, he also thought the mother go back to rest. The next day, burning slowly recede. Amount over a period of time we have a body temperature, the father has been sober mind, each body temperature, blood pressure, despite the difficulty speaking, he should ask the figures. We are also very nervous, my heart go on expecting fever. In the evening, they came up nasty fever, fever, lung infection is the external expression of pain like his father, until 4 am and more ways to find a doctor, the doctor said that only other drugs to reduce fever and other symptoms are not a cure. We want to cool down some alcohol to his father, we can not put up with his tortured body at high temperatures. Physical cooling quite obvious, Cawan, drop the zero several times, his father would feel better point.
7 21, drug use more than two days after the temperature drop down. Doctor Ma said, is no longer down with fever within 12 hours to explain loose. Temperature is normal, the father's mental state suddenly a lot better than a few days ago to speak clearly. That afternoon, I was in his bed, he told me to explain something, it was his last thoughts. In fact, I know, before he was not hospitalized, have written their own resume, it is an open memorial service with ah! His own children in order not to trouble themselves prepared in advance. His most memorable work place - Long Hill School, he has not forgotten the centennial celebration in 2013, he was ready a couplet, he asked me must be sent before the celebration. And his love life, calligraphy, recorded his honor certificate attesting to his life, pictures of footprints, so I keep it tidy. It was his father who live in the world, and the glorious and proud to live in the world, the only confirmed. My father said, .
I have checked online for lung surgery. Low success rate for lung surgery, organ transplantation is the most difficult of all kind of premature. The father's age and condition of more than surgery, physical fitness does not conform, is very risky, if not successful, life will end on the operating table. In the hospital, I still hoping against hope, and asked the Doctor Ma, said the doctor, you can not even not even think, the source can not wait for the lung. A provincial level cadres got dragged from a pulmonary source, Qilu Hospital, made after the operation, lived just over a year, not to mention costly. I feel like I was devastated.
father's health had gradually thin limbs began to shrink, have skinny arms and legs, is thinner than my lips, fingers purple. Constantly turning over in bed, we give nothing to rub the muscles to relax. After the fever down, love to clean his father, tried to sit up, cleaned it up a bit, put on new underwear. Wear the clothes have been inconvenient for hedging, the next day I bought a comfortable pajamas, his father said, longing to go home and enjoy their grandchildren after rehabilitation. He told his mother said, requirements are not met my poor father. Although burning
step down, but the status of the father but as a doctor said, the process of fibrosis that did not stop, but faster. One day was terrible day, or even the status of the morning and afternoon are not the same. Some can start chewing soft food, and later to only eat tofu, soybean curd, and then later used for inhalation only with thick, amassing later, we can only drink watermelon juice, milk, water. Two days before death, only drink water, not even the strength to suck, and straw in his mouth, only to see the gas call out, but smoke is not into it. Several days, his father has been considering the method used to eat things go. Straw, baby spoon, bottle ... ... are used. If there is breath, my heart is still thinking about how my father could eat into a go. How eager he is the life ah! Can, all the time we feel close to death, getting closer. The doctor told that we should prepare for his funeral, we still do not want to face the reality, still in the hope a miracle.
7 24, the father not predict the illness, said a few people who meet that day, to a lot of people visit, they saw his father one last time, my father no regrets. He said, In the evening, my mother and I go home to his father for clothes, watched his father's wardrobe, neatly folded clothes, no one thought never to wear, feeling ordinary people can not afford. Hanging sign not willing to wear a suit, not wearing open shirts, shoes ... ... my father says the future is clearly a better life, why do this to an end?
last day of the morning, my father has started a coma, all around his name, he did not agree, just a bit wide open eyes. Soon doctors were using monitors, this is the last to use the equipment for each patient. We do not have a doctor asked the nurse brush, dressing. I know that my father's end came, I knew there'd come a day but never thought this day came so quickly, the God of heaven can not wait to take him away. Bottle the water is still slowly dripping, blood pressure a little bit lower, blood pressure dropped to 90 below, the doctors and the boost injection drugs, only temporarily going up it. Each of us are all quite clear, leaving the father will become reality. We also asked the doctor not to intubation, the rescue? We said no, do not let my father will no longer be a second offense,bailey UGG boots, and let him go quiet. Five past six p.m., monitors all of the indicators have become zero. After the last breath exhaled his father became very quiet. No more big mouth breathing, and no longer have oxygen masks, and do not hold back no longer bored, no longer a pain ... ... my father since liberation, eternal rest from sleep!
7.29 at 4 pm memorial service was held at the funeral home. Father, dressed in new white shirt and dark blue suit, lying quiet, serene facial expression, no pain, but he no longer speak, ever fell asleep. Hang flowers, wreaths sweeping, elegiac couplet intertwined, sad who pay tribute to the father wearing a flag, the father quietly accept the prayers and good wishes of all, it all brought him to another world. In accordance with the deliberations of the father and mother before his death, he hoped that we buried him to the Jingan Park, near the children away so the children can always see him. We did, we personally install for my father's ashes, he was buried in the cemetery. Four head deeply bowed,Bailey UGG boots, my dear father, though not in the flesh, our souls can be together, you always live in my heart. If there is afterlife, we have also father and daughter.
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